I often wonder what other people’s perception of you is, and how it compares to what you see.
I think I have blogged about this before, and something Shayne said regarding Fiona Coyne’s suicide made me think of it again.
How many people see or know the real you? Do you blog about the real you, or how much stuff do you leave out. Do you only write the happy stuff?
For me I guess, I first think of how it will affect the person that I am blogging about and then only post it or delete it. There are a lot of times when I am bursting to write something but don’t because it will affect somebody in my life negatively. Like if Mr OL and I have a disagreement, or I am unhappy or something. I don’t write that. I do however have a sister that I can lean on and a very good friend that listens. So I guess they see the real me – the happy and the unhappy.
Other than that I guess my blog is a pretty good representation of me. I am an ordinary girl living an ordinary life, with ordinary problems. I do like to think that I live my life to the fullest though and if that I will have no regrets or wish that I had done more when I die.
I am feeling rather frustrated at the moment, but the thing I keep reminding myself is that yes, I might die today but there might also be a tomorrow. I don’t have to try and do everything right now. I don’t have to climb Mount Elbrus next year; I could do that when Kaylin is slightly older. I don’t have to run every race I want to right now. My mom is still running and she is 65. I probably have time. And if I don’t – oh well. I have done quite a bit of stuff already. And, although I am feeling very frustrated I am also loving spending time with Kaylin. She is growing so fast and if it is toss up between going for a run or spending time with her, she wins hands down.