It is the SpecSavers Ironman South Africa this Sunday – and I feel like crying.
Last year I did not mind that much that I was not competing. Baby OL was only a couple of months old, but this year…..
It just feels like I have gone from being this fit person who did stuff to, well…. I don’t know exactly. To somebody who does nothing. I know, I have a beautiful little girl, who I would not trade for the world and that priorities change and blah blah blah, but that does not help how I am feeling right now, ok it does a little bit but not much. I also know that a lot of it is my own fault and although I could not have done Ironman I could b e a lot fitter.
I went down to the beachfront today and they are busy setting up. The transition area is ready, the flags are flying it looks exciting. I want to be there on the start line! But in consolation I am going to do the swim for our company team in the Corporate Challenge. At least it is something I suppose!