I was in tears this morning. Big tears – 3 times!
I know other things (see way below) are going on at the moment and it was more than just the school thing but still…. I am really battling with Little OL and schooling this year. I know a lot of stuff, I know that she is too young for a full day at school (without a nap). I know that she is pushing her boundaries and I know that the school holidays broke her routine. I know it is more fun with the nanny who gives her whatever she wants (TV and sweets) and I know at school they put demands on her. I know all this but it does not make it any easier when your child point blank refuses to get in the car and go to school. Yesterday after eventually managing to get her strapped in the car-seat, she somehow managed to wind down the wind with her food and was SCREAMING (as only a 3 year old can) at all the passers-by in the neighbouring cars “GET ME OUT OF HERE!” over and over. Not fun. I turned the radio on loud, put my head down and drove. I did see a look of sympathy on one woman’s face though (for me not little OL – the others however were pointing and laughing. I was very surprised nobody pulled me over and asked me if I was kidnapping her.
Today was a repeat performance – except she figured out how to twist and turn so that I could not get her strapped in…… The escalating frustration level on both sides was not helping and in the end all I could do was burst into tears and walk away….. I wanted to say “fine, stay with the nanny” but felt if I did that, then I would just have the same thing on Monday. When I got back to the car she had calmed down, we hugged, she got in her car-seat and we both snivelled the whole way to school. When I put her in her teacher’s arms I burst into tears again and ran to my car. Can I count that as my first run in 8 weeks?
I drove to work, got myself some coffee and had just calmed down when I received a phone call from her school – I saw the number and my heart sank…… What now – is she sick, is she still bawling her eyes out, can the not calm her????? The secretary said they phoned me because Little OL had told her teacher that she made me upset in the car and she wanted them to phone and tell me she was sorry…. Bring on waterworks number 3!
This however cannot go on….. I actually had a meeting at the school earlier this week – for the next week I am fetching her at lunch time and taking her home to the nanny who we have asked to work full time for a bit. Hopefully this helps. I have also asked the nanny to come in later to work so that we have already left the house – on the days the nanny is not there she is perfectly happy to go to school.
Also, in a couple of months this might not be a problem. I will be unemployed anyway….. –that’s the other stuff that is going on, they are retrenching at work and the PE office will close. I am trying to take it as a good thing…..