I have had this blog for 5 years – wow time has flown. Before I started here I had an iBlog account for a short while as well.
Over the years my blog has changed quite bit. It has gone from being mostly about Ironman training to a real mix up of stuff, Ordinary Life stuff! I have had a baby, I have started baking and icing cookies, I have shown you all some of my paintings and sketches, I have started a new business – SA Medal Hangers. And very importantly I have made some great friends!
Thank you all so much for joining me on this journey, I am thoroughly enjoying it!
Here is the link to my first post – published on the 1st September 2008
I know other things (see way below) are going on at the moment and it was more than just the school thing but still…. I am really battling with Little OL and schooling this year. I know a lot of stuff, I know that she is too young for a full day at school (without a nap). I know that she is pushing her boundaries and I know that the school holidays broke her routine. I know it is more fun with the nanny who gives her whatever she wants (TV and sweets) and I know at school they put demands on her. I know all this but it does not make it any easier when your child point blank refuses to get in the car and go to school. Yesterday after eventually managing to get her strapped in the car-seat, she somehow managed to wind down the wind with her food and was SCREAMING (as only a 3 year old can) at all the passers-by in the neighbouring cars “GET ME OUT OF HERE!” over and over. Not fun. I turned the radio on loud, put my head down and drove. I did see a look of sympathy on one woman’s face though (for me not little OL – the others however were pointing and laughing. I was very surprised nobody pulled me over and asked me if I was kidnapping her.
Today was a repeat performance – except she figured out how to twist and turn so that I could not get her strapped in…… The escalating frustration level on both sides was not helping and in the end all I could do was burst into tears and walk away….. I wanted to say “fine, stay with the nanny” but felt if I did that, then I would just have the same thing on Monday. When I got back to the car she had calmed down, we hugged, she got in her car-seat and we both snivelled the whole way to school. When I put her in her teacher’s arms I burst into tears again and ran to my car. Can I count that as my first run in 8 weeks?
I drove to work, got myself some coffee and had just calmed down when I received a phone call from her school – I saw the number and my heart sank…… What now – is she sick, is she still bawling her eyes out, can the not calm her????? The secretary said they phoned me because Little OL had told her teacher that she made me upset in the car and she wanted them to phone and tell me she was sorry…. Bring on waterworks number 3!
This however cannot go on….. I actually had a meeting at the school earlier this week – for the next week I am fetching her at lunch time and taking her home to the nanny who we have asked to work full time for a bit. Hopefully this helps. I have also asked the nanny to come in later to work so that we have already left the house – on the days the nanny is not there she is perfectly happy to go to school.
Also, in a couple of months this might not be a problem. I will be unemployed anyway….. –that’s the other stuff that is going on, they are retrenching at work and the PE office will close. I am trying to take it as a good thing…..
I choose to be an optimist, to believe the best in people and to believe in honesty and accidents. I choose to see beauty around me.
Since 14 February I have been thinking about how everybody has react to the whole Oscar / Reeva shooting and how I feel about it. I am not saying I don’t believe he is guilty – he shot somebody, whether he intended it to be Reeva he shot that is a different story.
But, this post however is not about him. It is about me! It is about what I choose and how I choose to feel in situations like this. I don’t want to go around thinking the worst in everybody. I don’t want to see the doom and gloom in the world. I don’t want to think that there is only bad out there.
I want to see the beauty in a sunset or sun rise, I want to believe that people are inherently good. I want to enjoy my life and to enjoy the abundant kindness that surrounds me. I want to believe in luck and that hard work does pays off. I want to enjoy footprints in the sand, walks along the beach and kisses from family. Yes, I will be disappointed along the way, let down and called naïve. I don’t care. What other options are there, to live in a hole seeing only darkness, to be pessimistic and think that only bad is going to happen? Yes, I know bad does happen, and often, but so does good. I choose to see and focus on that even if at times it is very hard.
I am happy! I am not sure if it is because I am training lots, if it is because I hired a life coach and I am seeing the results, if it is because of the 30 Days of Gratitude, if it is because it is summer or most probably a combination of all of these but whatever it is long may it continue!
This weekend definitely added to my “happiness” feelings. A while back I decided to take Friday off. I could not get my regular hair appointment; the only one available was during working hours, I booked it anyway. After I booked it I was wondering how to go about getting the time off and then decided to take the whole day and do a total pamper spoil day, something I have never done before so I booked myself a pedicure and massage as well. Ahhhh – the joys. My biggest problem was ensuring I kept my toenails (running and toenails are not good friends). The day was awesome – not that I will have much leave left after January, but this is something I will do again.
Then on Saturday the OL family took a trip to Plett for breakfast. A really good friend and her family was visiting from the UK so we met them at the Beacon Isle Hotel. It was stunning – we ate breakfast and then headed to the pool for the rest of the morning. I could have stayed there for quite a while longer. We used to go to Plett often growing up and it is one of my favourite places – definitely a “happy place”. The last time I was there was when I was pregnant and we went to see the same friend. Between us we now have an extra kid each. But it was still like we saw each other not so long ago – I miss her. You can see photos from the last time we where there over HERE.
On Sunday morning I met a friend at Hobie Beach for a quick ride before we took part in the Ocean Race Series swim. It was my first Ocean Race Series swim of this season and I was reasonably happy with the results. It was supposed to be 1 km, but according to my Garmin it was about 1.53km (some of this extra was probably down to my zig-zagging but not all) and I did it in 29 minutes. If I swim that pace in East London at the 70.3 I will be fine.
All this beach, sea, sand, pools and sun has got me feeling like it is summer holidays. One more week of work. I cannot wait!!!
So this is the final day in the 30 Days of Gratitude. I must say that I have enjoyed doing it. I am in general very grateful for what and who I have in my life and generally consider myself to be very lucky but it has been good to write it down.
So, to end this off I am going to say what I am most grateful for.
Day 30 – I am grateful for my family. My mom, sister, brother, dad and of course Mr OL and Little OL. Extended family as well which includes friends. I have a group of people that I know that I can rely on, and that love me. It makes me very grateful and I hope they all realise how much I appreciate them.
Day 27 – Today I am VERY grateful that Home Affairs has moved. The new building is so much better and you don’t get harassed as you enter. They have secure parking – and the queues even moved pretty quickly. I finally changed my ID and Passport into my married name. It was not as traumatic as I was expecting.
Day 28 – I am grateful for the help and support I am getting to make changes in my life. Hopefully this has a long term positive effect on life in general as well as my marriage. I suppose I should really be grateful besides my friends and family who listen to me that I can afford to hire somebody that is helping me do this.
Day 29 – Today I am in a totally soppy mood and just feel like writing a whole list of things I am grateful for. There is not one specific thing that stands out more than the others.
For my friend and training partner that also does not take this whole Ironman thing too seriously. But takes it seriously enough to drive to my place at 5 am. We went for a run this morning, but after 2 km’s decided to walk instead. Such a beautiful morning, we just kept walking and talking. In the end we probably walked about 5 km.
To Mr OL, just because. (what can I say – I am feeling soppy)
To my neighbours – for having 5 daughters, and that the oldest 3 are able to baby sit. Very useful.
I am grateful for one of my work colleagues – who is much more of a friend that a colleague.
I am grateful that we have made a decision on Little OL’s school and after parent night last night we are even happier with that decision.
I am grateful that nobody laughed out loud last night at the restaurant that Mr OL decided to have dinner at after parent night. We forgot that we had on very large name tags Little OL’s name on them. Yike – blind.
I am grateful that sometimes Mr OL totally ignores my opinion and does what he wants. Like replace the floors in our house. They are gorgeous – and I fought him tooth and nail. Yes, you were right – sorry. Now all I need to do is paint the walls and buy new curtains. Happy girl.
I am grateful to my 2 year old for being so totally absolutely adorable!!!
Ok, I could actually go on – as I said I am in a totally soppy mood right now. I guess what I am trying to say is I am in a happy place right now.
Day 24 – I am grateful, that even though I had a bad run this morning, I was still able to run.
Day 25 – I am grateful to Mr OL for watching Little OL for the whole morning.
Day 26 – I am grateful I am a morning person – however, I am battling a bit this afternoon. 3:30 am is a bit early even for me….. It was stunning though and well worth it. We had a fantastic ride – I am also grateful that it is light at 4:30 when we hit the road.
Day 21 – I am grateful that FINALLY I have the keys to my property. The tenant has moved out and no damage has been done – except for dent in my pocket the size of a couple of month’s rent.
Day 22 – I am just grateful in general. I am not sure if I am a lucky person, or just choose not to focus on the negative but generally stuff is good and I am grateful for that.
Day 23 – today I am just grateful it is Friday!
Here is another picture of Port Elizabeth, Hobie Beach. It was taken from the balcony of our running club on Tuesday night after the run. Seriously can the view get any better? I don’t think so! Body Concept must have one of the best views and locations of any running club in the world!
Day 20 – Today I am grateful to my friend and training partner. Who not only puts up with unexpected cancellations and working around Little OL but also drives all the way across town at 4:30 am to cycle with me, whether it is indoors on our trainers or like today when we finally actually got on the road!
Ironman 70.3 South Africa is only two months away and this morning was the first morning that I did a training ride on the road! And boy was it awesome. It is already just getting light at 4:30, the weather was perfect and the ride went better than expected. I also did a triathlon on Sunday and was quite surprised by how well it went, seeing as the only riding I have been doing has been indoors. I have been running quite a bit so am stronger there than I normally am.
I am loving training again, I have a good schedule that works for Little OL and I and she now gets to see her Granny at least once a week. Happiness all round!
Day 15 – I am grateful for the ladies at my art classes I go to. I have been going for over 11 years and it is more about the social aspect that actually getting any painting done.
Day 16 – I am grateful that it is Friday!
Day 17 – I am grateful that I get to spend the day with Little OL. She is getting cuter and cuter each day.
Day 18 – I am grateful to Mr OL for watching and entertaining Little OL so I could do a triathlon in the morning and finish decorating over 100 Christmas cookies that a friend ordered.
Day 19 – I am grateful that it feels like summer is well and truly here! I woke up this morning and it just had that summer feeling about it. When I was out in my car at lunch time the temperature said 30 degrees (which made me grateful for air-con). But I love summer!!!!!